Ella Katey Tatey!

Last weeks weigh in and the Australia Open

2007-01-30T12:37:00.000+11:00

Hi Everyone, hope you are all well.

Firstly my apologies to any visitors who have been trying to read or leave a comment for me on my blog. For some bizarre reason this has not been possible for the last few posts, it's not something I did, but it does appear to be fixed now.

Well last week was not the best week for me but miraculously I lost weight, 1.2 kg's, I simply cannot believe it! I did still do some exercise, but mostly I made some average choices.

On that basis I now know that I was lucky, and I must do better this week.

Fast forward to Sunday evening, stunning dinner at the Melbourne Hilton (for work of course) then onto the Australian Open Men's Final, Roger Federer and Fernando Gonzales. I did really well, resisted beer, chocolates, chips only to head back to my hotel room and order room service, Chicken, Avocado, Brie and Mayo Toasted Sandwich! Halfway through I felt guilty so stopped eating all the bread.

Next morning beautiful hotel breakfast but still pretty good, resisted all the yummy looking stuff on offer, bring on lunch.

I took Officeworks to one of the best restaurants in Melbourne, Cecconi Cantina. If you are ever in Melbourne go there! I had an amazing three course lunch that would have certainly used all my points up, I tried to eat a light dinner, but I am sure that I need to really put in a significant walk this evening.

Will I gain, I am not sure, I hope not, but this is my life, some weeks I have to entertain customers and travel interstate. Regardless I have made peace with my body, I know I must adopt a new lifestyle and part of this is healthy eating and living.

This will not be a new thing for me, I will be doing this for a long time, maybe the rest of my life.

This is now okay with me, I have learnt that nothing tastes as good as being thin feels!

My goal for Jan was to loose 3kg's I am 0.2 kg's off that so I hope that goes tomorrow, and I am still working on my BMI.

Back to the tennis, it was really good, the first time I have seen tennis live, it almost made me want to learn! I am going to look into this a little and see if this is something I would like.

Federer is amazing, but Gonzales gave him a run for his money. Great game, good company.

Melissa, I haven't forgotten you I will do your tag tomorrow,

Have fun, J

My birthday!

2007-01-30T10:54:00.000+11:00

I saw this on Holly and Melissa's blogs so I thought that I would give it a try, hope it works!

Your Birthdate: November 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem.
You're good at so much - you never know what to do.
Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long.
You are destined for a life of travel and fun.

Your strength: Your likeability

Your weakness: You never feel satisfied

Your power color: Bright yellow

Your power symbol: Asterisk

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Monday mornings, gosh I hate them!

2007-01-22T09:44:00.000+11:00

So my weekend was okay, I will start with Friday.

I put in a few hours overtime to get some stuff done at work then went home to see my DH and baby girl.

DH had a cards night up the street with some neighbors so he wanted to leave by 8.00 ish. I noticed that he had been to the post office and there was a parcel from his Mum for me. I was guessing that this was my belated Christmas present. DH had told me that had been ordered specially for me, so I was pretty excited.

When I opened the box there were choccies (not what I needed at all) some gift cards (they would be good for kids) and a jewelry box, I opened the box in anticipation only to find a very ugly beaded watch, so not my style and nothing that I would ever purchase for myself. DH was watching me for my reaction (he obviously thought it was lovely, I don't know why, I am so not a bead person, I love white gold and diamonds, that is pretty much it!).

So I am faced with a big decision, do I lie to DH so that his feelings don't get hurt (as I know that he will be offended that I don't like it on the basis that it is from his Mum, and he is very protective of his Mum) or do I tell him the truth.

The decision was made for me, my face gave it away, he got pissed with me and starting listing reasons as to why I should like it and how much money it cost etc. and I felt like such a cow I just lied and told him that I felt that I could love it, I was just not used to it, cause I normally wear a Silver Slimline Armani watch (my 21st Birthday present) and this was so chunky and brown and beaded!!!

Either way he was pissed, dinner was in silence and he took off for his cards night .

Fast forward to 4.00 am, husband wanders in drunk as a skunk professing his love for me, wanting a kiss and 'cuddle', I was very asleep so you can imagine I was pretty receptive to his advances, anyway in the end he drove me so mad that I sent him to the guest bedroom.

The best news of all, in his drunken stupor he knocked the watch from the dresser, stepped on it and rendered it useless!

Now I don't even have to wear it and pretend that I like it, for once a drunken night out with the boys has its advantages!

The day after weigh in, kind of happy but not

2007-01-18T15:36:00.000+11:00

So I lost o.4 kg's, nearly one tub of margarine.

In total I have lost 1.6kgs, I feel sort of happy but was hoping for at least my goal of .75kgs.

Don't really feel like saying much, will write more after the weekend.

Weigh in day today, oh and it is Wednesday

2007-01-17T09:30:00.000+11:00

I feel semi prepared for weigh in, I always feel pretty confident until the day arrives, then I become uncertain again.

I want to have lost, I feel like I have given 90% this week, so I should get a 90% return, but you never know.

I have walked every day and stayed within points each day but I almost feel like it is not enough!

Either way nothing I can do about it now, I will just have to wait and see.

BTW one of the blogs that I have been reading is http://www.weightwatcherseh.blogspot.com/
Anne has been doing such a great job with her weight loss, now 5.5 pounds.

This has inspired me, I can do a great job just like her!

Tuesday and I still feel like Blah!

2007-01-16T09:46:00.000+11:00

I think that it is a combination of things, tiredness, stress, work pressure, relationship issues, life is so complicated at times.

That said, I cooked a really nice meal last night, simple but tasty, Chicken Breast Grilled with a very yummy WW Mushroom Sauce, tasty salad and steamed potato.

I then went on to go for a solid walk with the neighbors dog Kosta, he was more buggered than me!

Weigh day tomorrow, I feel confident by nervous again, aiming for 0.75 kilos (1.65 pounds)

Love the fact that Alea regularly visits my blog! Thanks you are a gem.

Although I have a blog I not very blog savvy, some people comment in their blogs about visitors that have been by and they are able to see the locations, others talk about lurkers, I think that these are people that read your blog, but do not comment.

Anyway I hear that there is a De-lurking week on, so if my chance anyone other than the sweet and kind Alea reads my blog, let me know by saying Hi,

Have a better day than me

It's Monday and I feel blah!

2007-01-15T09:46:00.000+11:00

Even though I had a great weekend, I feel so average today I am even contemplating going home sick.

I ate well and did some meaningful exercise with my cousin Emma (earnt myself some extra points) but last night we went to bed pretty early only to be woken at 3 am by a very loud bang.

So loud that I expected some guy in a balaclava to bust into our room and demand the ring from my finger! Daniel got up, grabbed the cricket bat from under the bed and investigated but could not find a thing.

Regardless we both lay awake for a long time listening and worrying.

This morning we were both buggered and Ella was foul!

Got a new bra on Saturday, it makes me feel better, like everything is in it's place.

Doing my best to stay on points, weigh-in in two sleeps, must exercise tonight!

I did it, I lost some weight!

2007-01-11T09:45:00.000+11:00

I am writing to you happy as can be today, you see yesterday was weigh-in and although I was excited, I was also dreading it! You see I so wanted to loose but I was worried about not losing as well.

Anyway to cut a long story short, I lost, 1.2kg's (that is 2.64 pounds for my international friends). To say I was pleased was an understatement! I was thrilled.

So what I learned is if I follow the WW plan 100% I will get a great result, if I only 'sort-of' follow the WW plan I will get a 'sort-of' result.

So what did I do well, well I exercised every day, something that I did not think was possible as I have been off exercise for the last few years. I also didn't use all my bonus points from exercise for food.

I had some great new WW meals, love the Tuna Macaroni in the new WW book (let me know if you would like the recipe, super easy and DH and Ella loved it) and tried to make healthy choices where I could, like at the movies and when we were out on Sunday.

Tonight I am going back to the doctors for more stuff for me and my mind.

My goal for this week is to loose 0.75 kilos (on the basis that when you first return to the program you normally have a big loss, but the following week is normally a little lower) I am trying to set myself a realistic goal so that I do not get deterred by me not realising a goal along the way.

I am also still working on losing 3 kilos and moving my BMI down to 29.

Wish me luck, I will be back tomorrow.

BTW some great blogs that I love to visit are; http://www.losinghalfofme3.blogspot.com/
and http://lifeat42.blogspot.com/

They are good reading and have some substance unlike many others that I have seen along the way.

One one more day to weigh in!

2007-01-09T14:03:00.000+11:00

I feel like I might be setting myself up for a fall, but I feel pretty sure that I must have lost some weight this week, I have been on points for four of the seven days and I have exercised every day, the minimum was a 25 minute walk the max was a 50 minute power walk!

I want to loose so badly but I am trying not get my hopes up, I so want to be rewarded for doing my best!

On another note I went to Kikki K today, I so love that shop, I spent $100 on stationery, yep stationery. It is the best, the website is www.kikki-k.com.au if you would like to take a look.

Got to go, work is busy today, hopefully I will have some good news tomorrow.

BTW my husband told me that he was proud that I was committed to my new healthy living plan, that made me feel pretty damn good.

Want to make him proud with a loss!

Monday, after a good weekend!

2007-01-08T10:42:00.000+11:00

My weekend was pretty good as far as weekends go. Friday night I decided to go for a walk without Ella cause she was way too whingey and I wanted to enjoy myself and wind down.

I set off on a long walk, power walking all the way, before I knew it, an hour had passed and it was dark! I was walking by a very dark bushy park with no streetlights and I started to get freaked out! So I thought I should run cause then I would get home quicker, I managed to run home without stopping for nearly ten (10) minutes after already walking for an hour! When I got to the front door I was so puffed that DH goes, 'where have you been and who is chasing you?'.

Saturday morning was even better, my amazing cousin Emma and I decided to go for a bush walk. We set off to the Cumberland State Forest and found this great trail that was 1.3 km long that takes an hour. We did it twice in 45 minutes! Although it was hot and humid I still felt great! We are going to do it gain next weekend.

(Emma is such an inspiration to me, she has lost alot of weight by simply walking! She has struggled with her weight her whole life, but a trip overseas has started her off on a change, and now you should see her legs!) I want to walk behind her from now on so she can be my inspiration!).

Sunday I got up and planned our WW meals for the week and then did all my grocery shopping so that we could go to the Fairfield City Farm with DH, Ella and my 12 year old stepsister Bridgett.

We had such a good time, here are some photos; Ella loves any type of kids playground, here she is having a good go on the slide, through the tunnel, and patting a lamb! (She was a bit freaked out by the animals, even though we have two (2) dogs these are the first animals that she has seen other than them that are the same size as her! It took me a few photos to get her to sit down and pat him.

BTW does anyone know how to add a link to another blog in their post. I visit this blog all the time and I want to share this with you cause it is very profound, something I am not!

Anyway WW seems to be going well, I am OP and have been for the week, looking forward to weigh in on Wednesday, I feel sure that I have lost something (even if it is my mind!).

I'm back as promised

2007-01-05T10:21:00.000+11:00

Alea's blog has really inspired me to do a better job journaling.

Part of the reason why I eat is because I am emotional and whilst I cry alot, I don't actually ever address these feelings, instead I take it out on the pantry.

For example, last nigh DH and I had a discussion that was unpleasant, so I at these chocolate wafer things from one of our Christmas hampers, not one, not two but five of them, a total points value of 5.625 points! Not good!

Normally I would just pretend this didn't happen but today, in fact now, I am going to write this in my points tracker! I just did, guess what my point value was for yesterday 29.625, I blew out at lunch by eating four (4) rice paper rolls, now there is nothing in these but my WW 'eating out' book says that one serve (which I assume is two rolls) is worth four points, that means I ate eight (8). The other things that messed me up was DH and I went to the movies yesterday for my last Annual Leave day. I was soooo good, I had a diet coke and then took six (6) weightwatcher crispbreads with me to munch on (2 points) while DH sat there beside me and ate a large popcorn. So although it was good, I used those points up when I wouldn't normally.

Anyway as promised, I had my weigh in on Thursday, and my weight is the second highest of all time, (not counting when I was pregnant with Ella), 83.9! I also did my BMI, I am 30 that puts me just in the overweight category, it says and I quote
'You are over optimum weight for your height. You may be facing health problems, so losing some weight would be a good idea'.
Do you think! I have been trying you know! Guess what is scarier if I put on 2.1 more kilos then I move into the obese category! Oh my god, I did not think that this happened to people like me.

My goal this week is to loose 1.0 kilo.

My goal for January is to loose 3 kilos and move my BMI down to 29.

Wish me luck.

BTW, can anyone tell me the points value for Sweet and Sour Prawns from Chinese or Chicken Rice Paper Rolls or Beef and Avocado Rice Paper Rolls? Thanks, J

It's a New Year and a New Me!

2007-01-03T09:27:00.000+11:00

I have been reading everyone else's fantastic blogs and they are so motivating, I feel like I should post (for the first time in months!).

I too have started to work on myself this year.

I went to the doctors to try and find out what exactly was wrong with me, cause obviously I have a weight issue, but in addition to this my DH and I have some trouble with communication and and me resenting him because I had to go back to work when Ella was a baby, and I am stressed out of my brain at work most of the time to the point that I say or do stupid things that I regret afterwards.

Anyway the doctor was really good and kept me pretty calm until I started talking about how I felt about leaving my baby and going back to work when she was 3 months and then I started to cry, how embarrassing!

In the end after I calmed down the doctor had me take this test called a DAS (Depression, Anxiety and Stess) to try and work out exactly what was wrong with me. Long story short, no depression, no anxiety but tons of stress! My ranking was High.

Together we are working on a plan to try and reduce my stress and make me a happier and healthier person.

First thing is that I am back on Weight Watchers (again, I know!) but part of my stress and unhappiness is because of my weight, so I will get weighed at my lunchtime meeting today.

Secondly I am reading a really good book (again!) called The Lazy's Girls Guide to Losing Weight and Getting Fit by AJ Rochester. It is very good and something I can relate to. It gives me direction and motivation, but no silly diet rules.

Thirdly I am trying to find a sport that I like as opposed to a sport that is a chore, so far I have come up with bushwalking and soccer, I am looking into these at the moment, but I am keen to do something this weekend.

Fourthly, I am trying to be more organised with my stuff and my house so I don't feel overwhelmed my all my stuff.

Finally, I am trying to spend more time on myself, just like shaving my legs, painting my toenails, developing my Childrens Boutique Business etc.

I am also going to post my wins' of the week as well as my stat's. I will be back tomorrow.

The BBQ we were uninvited to! Twice!

2006-11-09T10:44:00.000+11:00

Our friends K and A invited us to a BBQ to watch the NRL (National Rugby League) Grand Final. We accepted and planned towards it. Two days before D got a text message from A saying that they had changed their minds and were cancelling.

D rang A and said cool, no issues and A suggested that we catch up for the Bathurst 1000 Motor Race. D agreed and we planned for this BBQ.

Again 2 days prior D got a text message from A saying that they had changed their minds and they were cancelling. D was pissed off.

A is a good friend from the past and was the best man at our wedding. K is my friend from work three years ago.

We set them up and they lived in our rental property for a year and now live in CH.

We feel a bit pissed as well as a bit hurt, what do you think we should do?

Monday, after a good but sad weekend!

2006-10-09T13:06:00.000+10:00

It's Monday lunchtime after a good but sad weekend, very long story which I may go into tomorrow, but we had a birthday party for Leo (Ella's little friend) yesterday at Lollipops, an indoor play centre.

For the first time in ages Ella and I played for three hours straight, it was sooo cool.

I feel like I miss so much of her life because I work and then when we are together I have to share her with Daniel, so for us to just play for three hours was cool!.

We had the Bathurst 1000 Motor Race yesterday, I love motor racing, like really love it, but I felt very sad when I learned last night that a young driver passed away yesterday after a horror crash on Friday. He was only 31 with a young son and for some bizarre reason I feel very upset, to the point that I went to bed crying about this.

My husband thinks I am wierd but for some reason I am taking death pretty badly at the moment, Steve Irwin and Peter Brock make me cry all the time and I am not a real cry baby.

Anyways, I am back to work now, but I will write tomorrow about my plane trip home as well as the BBQ we were uninvited to, twice!

Adios!

Holidays, I bloody wish!

2006-09-08T11:49:00.000+10:00

I received a visitor to my Blog, the kind georgous visitor took the time to ask where I had been, and enquired as to whether I have been on holidays.

My raucous response was 'Holidays, I bloody wish!'

I have been traveling like a maniac for work, to the point that my baby girls tells anyone who listens that her Mommy lives on an aeroplane! In the last two weeks alone I have gone from Sydney to Melbourne, back to Sydney then to Canberra, back to Sydney then to Perth, then to Adelaide and then back to Sydney again.

I have never been so happy to sit in my own bloody peak hour traffic!

Work is very full on and I am struggling, I go from being happy with the security of the job to wishing I was free and had my own business, but I just can't see how I could get by without my income to begin with.

My baby girl is missing out on me, and I laid the law down with Daniel the other night when I told him that I would not work like a dog again when we have another baby (next year I hope). Last time I worked right up until the night before and was then back at work part-time three weeks later, a disaster, trust me.

The thing is, he has forgotten! I will not do that again, I want my baby girl to be able to bond with their new brother or sister and me to them, especially before Ella goes to Kindergarten.

Anyways, it is my 3rd Wedding Anniversary today and Daniel sent me some pretty flowers to work, what a good husband he is, he has also organised dinner tonight and Ella goes to Dad and Pams, it reminded me that I am still in love with him, sometimes I do forget!

Must go will write again soon!

A little later today...

2006-08-10T15:34:00.000+10:00

I went out on a limb and called MM to see how she is going after lunch with MP today.

I don't know if I helped or hindered, but I wanted her to know that I was there for her and I understood her awful feelings of loss and adandonment.

I think that I made her upset, I was pretty upset just talking to her, I had to pull over cause I kept starting to cry then stopping again cause I knew that me being upset was upsetting her.

I really feel for her because she is so scared and just wants everything to go back to normal, whatever normal is.

I wish I could reduce both their pain and unhappiness, sometimes I wonder if there really is a God, why would he cause pain like this for two good people?I don't want to stalk her, but I will message her tonight to let her know that I am there if she needs me.

Off to plan the Myer/David Jones roadshow now.

Today is the first day of a whole new blog!

2006-08-10T11:37:00.000+10:00

I am officially inspired today! (Not just because of my cute little baby girl, Ella, excuse the snotty nose, I am a bad mother).

I never really felt comfortable just talking about my weight loss in my blog, there is a whole other side of me that is far more important!

I have been reading some really amazing blogs (Kristin, Holly, Kevin, Anne, Life at 42) and they are share one common thread, they are all incredibly honest! Not that I have been lying, more deceiving by omission.

Instead today I want to tell you about the weirdest thing that happened to me, I was driving to work when I heard Nick Lachey (the ex-husband of Jessica Simpson) being interviewed by my favourite breakfast radio team Kylie and Jackie-O.

They were doing the standard questions and they they played one of his new songs, 'I can't hate you anymore'.

I felt so bad after hearing it, it is such a sad song about his marriage breakdown and it made me think about my own marriage as well as how bad it would be to loose your spouse whom you once thought you would spend the rest of your life with. I guess you normally start a marriage with good intentions, as I am sure they did.

I am feeling a little weird even just writing this because I don't know Nick or Jessica but I guess divorce and seperation can happen to anyone. I felt sad for a while when I got work, then I checked out both their websites (I know, weird!) and they looked happy in their press photos!

It made me think of my friends that have decided to separate for a 'break' after eight (8) years and one two year old (the stunning T), MM was my friend first but as their relationship developed I also became friends with ML. By chance he came to work with me and we have developed a very good friendship.

To hear him talk of his pain and depression at the state of their relationship nearly made me cry.

I just want to know how you are supposed to get over a broken heart? I did about five years ago (I think that it entailed lots of alcohol and sex with my ex-ex), but I can't remember how, what do I tell him?

I am not well!

2006-06-05T12:49:00.000+10:00

Don't I sound like a sook, my husband has been ill with a bad cold over the last few days, my poor baby girl has also caught this too! Chances of me missing it were not looking good, and sure enough, I now have the same cold!

I feel pretty rotten, but a bonus, I have lost my appetite! That said, we are having cold snap today and all I feel like is toasted sandwiches! I weighed in last week and lost another 500 grams. That is the equivalent to a tub of margarine! I was pretty happy but I can see things are starting to slow down now.

I have not had the best week, my recording has been terrible, and I had pizza out on Thursday night, Pizza for a work lunch on Friday night and then Chinese takeaway on Saturday night.
I did try to make healthy choices (although there is only so much you can do with Pizza!) but I am very worried about weigh-in this Wednesday.

I have been trying so hard to win a car off the radio for the last week or so, I knew the answer to the competition but just could not get through. Sure enough after trying again this morning, the car went off. Not to me, but to someone with the same answer as me! Typical.

Good News, Robbie Williams tickets go on sale tomorrow. I have a few girls together and we are planning a night out. I am hoping to get a few tickets tomorrow.

We have also booked our holiday for Christmas this year, the venue is Moby's Beachside Retreat @ Boomerang Beach. I am very excited. Daniel's mum is coming along as well. We are now going to start to plan the day to day activities, five nights away with our baby girl! I can't wait.

Ella Kate's new words are 'Yes please' and 'Suze', (one of our dogs). She also grew a new bottom tooth over the weekend. We now have seven little toothiepegs! What a clever girl! Here is a picture of her a month or so ago at the park thinking about getting on the swing.

My Dad and my Stepmother Pam and my Stepsister Bridget have finally moved home from the US. Here is a picture of us all going for a walk at a local park. Sorry the piccy of me is not so good. I was doing my best to hid behind the pram!

Wish me luck for Wednesday!

2 days after weight-in

2006-05-26T11:44:00.000+10:00

Put my jeans on today and they are fitting better, I do not know if it is because I did not wash these last time I wore them or if in fact I am getting smaller.

Dad says I am, but I think that he is just trying to be nice, then maybe he could be telling me the truth? Not long until we go to Tasmania, that said, I really want to have lost at least another two kilograms by then at an absolute minimum. I would prefer four kilograms, but I do not want to set unrealistic expectations as I know that I have lost alot of weight already in a very short time.

That said, I think that I am going to need some exercise to help me get there, I am committing to exercise both Saturday and Sunday this week, at least a half hour brisk walk. I am going to drop off some Tupperware brochures on my way.

I am also going to make some more yummy soups and dinners this weekend as well as get ready for our garage sale.

My baby girl is so cute today, she has a scottie dog on her top and points to it and says 'woof', actually she is clever and cute.

I am a happy girl today!

2006-05-24T09:24:00.000+10:00

Last week I was lucky enough to record a 1 kg weight loss, and was so happy that I did not think it possible to do again.

But sure enough, I jumped on the scales this morning and I have lost 1.5 kg! Hippip Hooray! I am very happy because I will be honest, I did not think that that I was going to loose anything.

I have had a little chinese over the weekend (to celebrate Daniel's payrise) and have been regularly enjoying the delicious weight watchers deserts (I love the chocolate and the berries) and have not fitted any exercise in at all. Regardless I have tried to make healthy choices.

My goal for this week is to better record my food, water and exercise, I have been very slack for the past few weeks.

I am fitting in my clothes better and Dad and a few people at work say that they can see the loss. I am going to try harder this week I would love to fit into my size 12 suits! That is one of my goals, oh and to not fit in my sixe 14 Sass and Bides and Tsubi's.

The day before my second weigh-in!

2006-05-16T17:05:00.000+10:00

I am pretty sick at the moment with a cold, so I am feeling pretty average.

I am trying to stay focused for the weigh-in tomorrow. I have been trying on clothes over the past few days and that was depressing and motivating all-in-one.

I was aiming for a loss of 1 kg this week. I have had a few strays from the program, my day in Melbourne and also Mothers Day, out for breakfast and then a 3 course meal for dinner.

When I dressed this morning I did feel lighter, but I am not sure if my mind is playing tricks on me.

I am hoping for a low points dinner tonight and a good sleep to set me up for a loss.

Fingers crossed.

Getting ready for the weekend

2006-05-12T15:09:00.000+10:00

Well Melbourne was okay, I made pretty good food choices, but still felt like I had slipped off the program. It is the whole weighing and measuring issue I have.

Even today I made good food choices, but because I can't seem to measure and weigh everything I feel like I have fallen off the wagon, even though I know I haven't.

This weekend is Mothers Day, my second. I will be preparing dinner for Mum and Kate on Sunday night so here is hoping that I do not stray too much. I am in control of entree and main case, Kate is doing desert.

I am going to fit some exercise in each day because I really want to loose some weight this week, I am aiming for 1 kg.

I have booked a trip to Tasmania to see Daniel's family on the 7th July. I want to have at least lost 4kg by the time I get there, I have eight weeks to do it, here is hoping that this will be not only achieved, but blown out of the water.

I am not going to plan our meals for the next week to ensure that I do not stray! I want to loose at least 1kg!

A loss (sort-of) to report

2006-05-10T15:48:00.000+10:00

I have decided that Wednesday is my weigh-in day. Sort-of in the middle of the week, not really much on for Wednesday mornings.

This morning I bit the bullet and jumped on the scales. According to my dodgy scales I weight 81 kg, my previous weight was 83.3 kg but that was with my clothes on (I had jeans, shoes etc.)

I am not really sure if I actually lost weight or not, but I feel better, my clothes feel good and I kind-of rewarded myself with a few new pairs of pants from Cue. I hope that I get to take these in soon.

Daniel and I had an a sort-of argument last night, he said something along the lines of 'big fat ass', that really made me cry, I was very hurt my his comment and got pretty upset. Normally I would have gone and eaten something bad, but instead I sat and read my Weight Watchers magazine for some strength. I know now he was just crabby, but if he says it again I will be pretty pissed.

I made a Red Lentil Bolognaise for dinner, it was really low points and okay, not hugely tasty, but good when I need to eat something healthy for dinner.

Off to Melbourne tomorrow, here is hoping for a healthy plane meal.

Where do I start?

2006-05-09T14:46:00.000+10:00

My name is Jessica and I am 29 years old, 30 in November (boy, I never actually thought I would get this old, it only seems like yesterday that I was 21!).

I am the devoted wife of Daniel and equally devoted mother of Ella Kate (16 months).

I began this blog today after reading another blog on this site. I thought that it may be quite cathartic for me to jot down how I am feeling as I begin my weight-loss journey!

I have just become a member of Weight Watchers at Home. I am now 83.3 kilograms, (I hate writing that down! ).

My motivation for my weight loss is as follows;

I want to lose this weight so that I can prepare for my second pregnancy and not end up in this same overweight scenario.
I want to lose this weight so that my clothes fit better and I don't feel so uncomfortable and self-conscious. (Sometimes I carry my bag in front of my stomach because I feel so fat!).
I want to lose weight to improve my relationship with my husband. I know that he is not so proud of me anymore. I feel that he respected me more when I took better care of myself and I think that the way he and I interact now reflects his level of respect for me. I want to improve our relationship from a 'passion' perspective, I don't feel great about me, so I can hardly expect him to jump on my bandwagon!
I want to wear the latest fashions and trends that just don't come in a size 14
I want to get in our swimming pool this coming summer in my bikini without a sarong over the top of me. I want to stop wearing my husbands board shorts to my daughters swimming lessons.
I want to be healthy and attractive so that I present a good role model for my daughter
I want to address my feelings and insecurities to reduce my emotional eating.
I want to do this slowly and carefully and maintain my weightloss, I do not want to be trying to loose weight again in two (2) years time.

I'll leave it at that for today, but I better just getting all that down.