A little later today...

I went out on a limb and called MM to see how she is going after lunch with MP today.

I don't know if I helped or hindered, but I wanted her to know that I was there for her and I understood her awful feelings of loss and adandonment.

I think that I made her upset, I was pretty upset just talking to her, I had to pull over cause I kept starting to cry then stopping again cause I knew that me being upset was upsetting her.

I really feel for her because she is so scared and just wants everything to go back to normal, whatever normal is.

I wish I could reduce both their pain and unhappiness, sometimes I wonder if there really is a God, why would he cause pain like this for two good people?I don't want to stalk her, but I will message her tonight to let her know that I am there if she needs me.

Off to plan the Myer/David Jones roadshow now.

Today is the first day of a whole new blog!

I am officially inspired today! (Not just because of my cute little baby girl, Ella, excuse the snotty nose, I am a bad mother).

I never really felt comfortable just talking about my weight loss in my blog, there is a whole other side of me that is far more important!

I have been reading some really amazing blogs (Kristin, Holly, Kevin, Anne, Life at 42) and they are share one common thread, they are all incredibly honest! Not that I have been lying, more deceiving by omission.

Instead today I want to tell you about the weirdest thing that happened to me, I was driving to work when I heard Nick Lachey (the ex-husband of Jessica Simpson) being interviewed by my favourite breakfast radio team Kylie and Jackie-O.

They were doing the standard questions and they they played one of his new songs, 'I can't hate you anymore'.

I felt so bad after hearing it, it is such a sad song about his marriage breakdown and it made me think about my own marriage as well as how bad it would be to loose your spouse whom you once thought you would spend the rest of your life with. I guess you normally start a marriage with good intentions, as I am sure they did.

I am feeling a little weird even just writing this because I don't know Nick or Jessica but I guess divorce and seperation can happen to anyone. I felt sad for a while when I got work, then I checked out both their websites (I know, weird!) and they looked happy in their press photos!

It made me think of my friends that have decided to separate for a 'break' after eight (8) years and one two year old (the stunning T), MM was my friend first but as their relationship developed I also became friends with ML. By chance he came to work with me and we have developed a very good friendship.

To hear him talk of his pain and depression at the state of their relationship nearly made me cry.

I just want to know how you are supposed to get over a broken heart? I did about five years ago (I think that it entailed lots of alcohol and sex with my ex-ex), but I can't remember how, what do I tell him?